Haii

Today was really laid back! Caleb got back home really early! I didn’t expect him to get back before 9 as I was still sleeping pretty good from last night. The doctor called and told me that my blood test came back normal and I was just having high anxiety. I was so relieved! It made me feel so much better about everything. 

Throughout the whole day we mostly relaxed and were trying to think of what to do. It’s really sad how fast the days have gone by. I really don’t want to leave him. This whole thing is difficult on me. I really wish I could be with him every hour, every minute, and every second of every day because that’s how much I love him. I am so attached to the point of not looking forward to going back home. As much as I miss home, I’m already missing him more than anything. 

I fell asleep early afternoon from watching so much korean drama. Waking up early probably was the reason why I fell asleep again. Caleb was on LoL for a bit. I got dressed and we headed out to Johnny Rockets. I love that place. It’s so comfortable and the food is good! We shared the regular philly cheesesteak sandwich. After that, we got jamba juice and yogurtland :)

We got back home and that’s when the drama happened. It was crazy and I won’t go into it since these kind of things don’t happen too often anyways. Everything was okay after and I had some alone time with Caleb. I’m so gonna miss his chubby butt!

Caleb got back home an hour earlier than expected. He was supposed to finish at 1:45 but he got back at around 12:30pm!

SO I FINALLY GOT TO GO TO THE DOCTOR.

The wait was really long especially because I didn’t schedule an appointment. Walk-Ins are the worse! I didn’t think they’d take me but after awhile of waiting, they gave me an appointment at 4:15! Since we had a lot of time, Caleb and I went to Jersey Mikis to get sandwiches. I wanted to eat something healthy so I went with the ham and cheese sandwich with lettuce, tomato, and onions. It was good! I only ate half of it since I knew we had to rush back to the doctors. Man, I was nervous. I wasn’t nervous until I was inside the room. My heart started racing and I couldn’t control it. Talk about some serious anxiety right there. My blood pressure was so high and so was my heartbeat! The doctor gave me a pill (atenolol) to take and it helped slow down my heartbeat. They did a blood test on me and also took an ekg. The ekg came out to be normal. I just gotta wait for the results on my blood test to see if there’s anything wrong. I’m pretty nervous about that!

We got back home and watched an episode of korean drama before Caleb went to sleep. I got to talk to Jarvis on skype and talked to Marc on facebook the sametime. It’s so boring without Caleb!

I felt so relaxed! I slept so good!

Well I haven’t had this before. The cramps actually came back from the first day that I had it. It wasn’t as bad but it was still enough to keep me in  bed for most of the afternoon. During that time, Caleb was playing LoL. OH.. he also got me hot chocolate when he got back home. It was super yummy. I drank it all so quickly. :) Caleb’s mom and uncle came back home with chinese pork buns which were so delicious. 

David and Ivan came over around 4:30 and we headed out to Dennys after much deciding. I got the 3 course dinner meal which was either salad or soup, an entree, and a dessert. I chose chicken noodle soup, grilled chicken with broccoli and avocado, and a strawberry banana split. I also got a strawberry lemonade. Everything was so delicious.

We got back home and I had to change! LOL. Caleb and Ivan were playing LoL with Reggie and Derek so I just chilled. David showed me some videos of Caleb dancing. I think I fell in love even more with Caleb. LOL. I want to see him dancing in person now XP 

They left afterwards and after watching an episode of our korean drama, Caleb went to sleep. I think a little before 8. Around there. This is the part where I don’t like because I tend to not have anything to do when he goes sleep. 

Headache finally went away! I was super happy. Caleb got back home early today at 8ish. He brought back coffee for me, but after drinking it, I think it may have triggered my anxiety a bit. He was playing LoL with randoms and he got his first penta kill with Tristana! It was crazy. Even though he didn’t get a picture of it, I witnessed it :) 

Caleb had to go back to work for a meeting at 12-2 so while he was gone, I skyped with Jarvis. I saw a new cat that was roaming around the living room and apparently the cat’s name is Cookie too. Time went by pretty fast. I was also talking to Marc about random things. When Caleb got back home, he brought back hot chocolate. I am so addicted! It’s so yum!

For dinner, Caleb ordered a large pepperoni pizza for 8.99 from Pizza Hut. We picked it up and got back home to watch korean drama. Caleb went to sleep afterwards. 

I talked to Marc a lot while Caleb was asleep. Mostly random things and about the girl, Chelsey that he likes. He’s seriously so in love with her, like he was showing me a picture of her that he couldn’t stop staring at. LOL. It was really funny.

Caleb got up 5 hours later and I pretty much fell asleep. Lol

I kept waking up off and on today. It was so horrible having a headache and trying to get sleep. On the positive side, my cramps from yesterday went away completely! Though that went away, the headache was still bothering me so I didn’t feel like getting up from bed. Caleb got back home at 2 pm today and all I remember was still having a headache and not feeling like getting up. Caleb’s mom made tuna salad for sandwiches. While Caleb was playing League, he kept asking me to make the sandwiches, and I was just not feeling it. That chubs made me feel bad so I forced myself to get up and make them. At that point, I was just feeling irritated. With everything going on and how I was feeling, it was just not making me any better. I wasn’t really mad, just more irritated and emotional.  I know he cares about me and doesn’t want me feeling that way, but it’s just one of those things that you can’t help when you’re a girl like me. Happens every month. I’m fine now though. =P

So we headed out since it was super hot at home, but first we had to get gas. Then Caleb and I went to Target afterwards. We went there mainly to check out the fans. There were many different ones, but in the end, we chose an osculating 40” fan with many different settings. We also got candy for Mercedes too =] Then we headed over to YogurtLand where we got Samantha yogurt and Caleb got some himself. I didn’t feel like getting anything so instead I got a power sized  orange dream from Jamba Juice. I’m pretty sure I’m addicted now. 

We got back home to set everything up. Caleb and I were so excited to try out the new fan that it was the first thing we did when we got back. It didn’t take us long to set up, so that was good. The fan is actually not bad. For 60$, it does its job in osculating air around the tiny room. After that, we watched an episode of korean drama. Caleb went to sleep afterwards at about 7:30 pm. It’s 11:11 pm and I’m still here tumblring and watching youtube. As of now, my headache does feel a little better than before. 

Caleb has work at 4 am tomorrow but at least he gets off a lot earlier :) More time with him. Yay!

Caleb and I woke up around 10:40 am today. Everyone was of course up already. I remember Caleb cut up some bananas and strawberries for me. It was super good! His mom also made us tacos while we were playing League of Legends, which was really good! I didn’t do so well today, mostly cause I still need to practice learning all my skills. I also wasn’t feeling well and I found out why afterwards. I was cramping super hard! It was not fun! Caleb made me green tea and got me food that his mom or uncle made. The pork chops and carrots were so delicious! 

While I was resting, Caleb got to play his first ranked game with Walter. They won and decided to play two more! It was so exciting that they won all three games! After drinking the tea and taking a little of the pepto bismo (threw up a little) I was feeling somewhat better. Caleb and I watched a few episodes of temptation of wife. We’re in the 60s now! We still have about 60 more episodes! LOL. 

Caleb knocked out at 8:15pm so I gave him close to 5 hours of sleep as it’s 1:06 am now. He has a super long day tomorrow and I don’t know what I’m going to do without him. I’ve been keeping myself awake so that I can hopefully fall asleep easily when he leaves at 6:30. Somehow every time he leaves, I start having a hard time falling back to sleep. It’s like, I need him there…. because he makes me feel safe. I don’t know but I know I miss him every time he’s not there. It’s so different without him. While he was sleeping, I was spectating Marc and Shino’s game on League. I talked to Marc for awhile, about so many random things… and he ended up changing his fake facebook name. LOL. 

OH! we also finally got to wash the clothes. And Caleb’s mom’s friend who’s the neighbor across the street came to talk to us earlier about some finance class. It was interesting so we might check it out. Caleb also invited Ivan and David to come but we’ll see. Haha

I think that’s about it… I’m getting hungry again….

Today was a good day! I woke up feeling great! Slept in till about 11. Caleb and I showered by 12. We were picking up David and Reggie to head to the block of orange. I seriously love that outlet. It’s like the best place to shop. The last time we went there I bought so much with Caleb. The drive there was smooth, it took maybe about 40 minutes max.

The first thing we did was get some food. Caleb and I got our favorite charleys cheesesteak sandwich. Reggie and David got pizza. One thing I remember while eating was the picture Caleb took of Reggie. Good times!  After that, we decided to go see a movie. Oblivion had just came out so we chose that movie at 3:30. The movie was long, like 2 hours! It was really good though! I actually liked it more towards the end. My favorite part was shopping afterwards. I bought three things at Wet Seal and two things at Pac Sun! I bought a pair of jeans, shorts, and a top from Wet Seal for 30$ and two pairs of jeans from Pac Sun. OH..funny story. One of the jeans that I picked up had a tag on it that read $2.99. Neither Caleb or I believed it but I decided to check at the register anyways and it actually turned out to be $2.99! I was shocked! Caleb actually bet’d with that if it really was $2.99, he would pay for it, so in the end, he paid for both! LOL. Too funny. After that, Reggie went to buy a gift for his friend at Zumiez. He bought a hoodie for his friend and a funny cat shirt with eye lasers. LOL. Caleb bought coffee and these cinnamonrolls… cause of course, he’s fat. XD At the end, I got a ‘power’ size orange dream from jamba juice. It was so yummy. I drank it all as soon as we got back home. For dinner, we all got food from this chinese restaurant called ‘Twin Dragons’ I think. The food wasn’t bad! I actually really liked the firecracker chicken that I chose, which in the end, Caleb ate all! LOL

The day was pretty perfect. I had so much fun :) Slept good too!

The day started out with Caleb coming home around 11. We had left over vegetables from his mom and roasted chicken from yesterday. Yummy! 

Caleb called my HMSA insurance to see if I could go to the doctor here. The doctor office was closed early so we’ll have to call tomorrow to see if they’ll take it. 

I remember Caleb, Marc, Reggie, Derek, and I played a few games of LoL. The first game we played we lost, but the second game we won! My first win with high level people and on the account that Marc gave me. So happy! I actually love playing Lulu as support! I love her range and that she can turn enemies into a pet for a little while. I also got to try out flash and ignite for the first time since I could never get high enough level for those skills. LOL

We picked up David and Ivan, and headed out to Reggie’s house. We got there at like 8ish pm. Ended up chilling there for awhile watching Reggie play a ranked game with his friend Derek. It was a good game! They won! David and I were getting so hungry. Lmao!

So we ended up going to this place called Wing Stop to get food. After we all ordered out food, we had to wait so we went to Cold Stone. Caleb got this cookie icecream thing and I got a smoothie. I wasn’t too sure whether to get a shake or a smoothie but because they didn’t have milk (haha what the heck), I had to get a smoothie. It’s healthier anyways. I got what was called ‘Strawberry Bananza’. It was actually pretty good! We went back to Wing Stop to pick our food up. Then we headed back to Reggie’s house to eat. Caleb and I got 8 mild and 7 teriyaki boneless wings. It was too much! We also tried one of Reggie’s super hot wings. It was extremely spicy. The spicyness didn’t leave my mouth for awhile. Thank goodness the milk helped a lot to calm it down. LOL

After that, we took David and Ivan back to David’s house. Caleb and I finally got back home afterwards. He jumped on LoL so quickly. LOL! And yeah, I think that’s probably what he’s going to be doing for the next 4 hours or so. It’s 11:09 pm right now. 

Caleb and I got plenty sleep today. After he got home around 11, played a game of league, and watched an episode of temptation of wife, he was knocked out. I actually fell asleep with him for awhile!! I already had a good nights rest the other day and now I had even more!!

I was feeling a lot better up until I started talking to shino on league. She definitely triggered my anxiety. I was being polite and nice as usual and she made me feel horrible. Some of the things she says are so uncalled for. She was saying that I avoid her, which I don’t. Just because I avoid playing one game with her, she thinks that? LOL also when I said that I was practicing support and I wasn’t that good she says ‘Well that’s what happens when you’re thrown a level 23 account’. So rude. People need to learn that if they have nothing nice to say, then don’t say it at all. I felt really disrespected and this is why I don’t want to play with her or talk to someone that acts this way.

After I got off, I started feeling better. Caleb and I chilled for the most part. We watched some korean drama and he went back to playing league. OH! we also had chicken pot pie for a late night snack. I always get hungry at random times!